Neurotic

 I need to get my thoughts and feelings out somewhere so I think this is a good place. The issue I have is jealousy I suppose, or I guess more like an issue with my own confidence. At the time it happened I didn't know how much of an effect it would have on my psyche but has really messed with trusting people.

 It started because I was going to date a girl for the first time, we had been talking for about a month which was seemingly going well and finally we decided it was date time. So it is the day before the date and I get a message from the girl saying that she is in love with her male best friend so wouldn't be able to go on the date.

We are still acquaintances on Facebook but that really has messed me up since I now am talking to a girl with a male best friend and all I'm thinking in my head is please don't choose him. You'd think that was the only time but I've been cheated on and came second place more times than I'm willing to admit. I really hope this goes well because I really like this girl and I feel confessing this bad part might just make her question if I'm the right guy for her. It would seem controlling I think but I certainly wouldn't be telling her to not have this best friend. Someone put me in that position before as an ultimatum and needless to say they lost. I'm not sure if this helped but I think the anxiety I have is lessended a little.  

If anyone does read this what advice could you offer? and any things you know you are neurotic about? Please be kind