DON'T read if you're in a dark place
This is about my fear, the biggest one that I have I think. I have a minor fear of heights and a great fear of spiders, but this one, this one hits me the hardest. I think it came about strangely enough when I watched a video about cyberpunk-sequence video.... hear me out. I was just watching this environment video with skyscrapers in a dystopian environment. I was thinking about how I would never see what happens in the future, at least not that far into the future. That really hit me in that moment, thinking I wouldn't be around to see that. I'm atheist which is relevant to the topic, having no feelings on the afterlife, for me nothing being there after we die, just blackness, oblivion. To some I guess that's a nice thought but to me I worry about what I will leave behind or my regrets. I had the same thought about 10 minutes ago just sitting In bed and I thought about how I'm 30 now, it feels like no matter what I do nothing really matters, I guess my beliefs sometim